When you’re standing at the crossroads…

I’ll stand by you.

So by now we’ve (obviously) figured out that i’m not a great blogger. I start, I continue, but really only when i’m stuck by an urge to write.

And right now i’m really struck with the urge to write. undoubtably due to the fact that I have to have all my earthly possessions packed up within the next few hours.

I’m headed to DC tomorrow. I’m headed to law school the day after. I could fill pages with the wondering and doubt, but instead i’m just lightly going to touch on it. I’m going to law school, and when I do, I will be the first person in my family to have graduated college, and as a double header, attend grad school.

I’m on my own, kids. For better or worse, till debt do us part.

I’ve left the job I grew up at, the home I didn’t grown up in. The siblings that I finally got to know again. I thought I was all grown up, but it seems to me there’s always more growing up to do.

Oh, the people i’ll meet and the things i’ll see. I wonder what 3 years will bring me.

(Credits to Postsecret.com)

There’s no doubt that law school will change me. Undergrad changed me. Life has a way of changing you. I just hope the changes are the ones i’ve been anticipating.

My Graines…

I wouldn’t be me without my migraines.


Maybe I would be a happier, more relaxed person, but definitely not me.

I can’t remember a time where I didnt headaches. back then no one thought they were migraines; lots of theories abounded, but migraines were never discussed.

There was the pediatrician who thought I was faking to get out of school. The eye doctor who thought my (20/20) vision was somehow skewed, the school social worker who thought it was repressed rage. Lots of ideas, but not real solution.

I was the kind of kid who went to school sleepovers with a bad filled with Advil and Tylenol, when most kids brought a teddy bear or blanket. I had a special bottle in the school office, filled with OTC painkillers.

Looking back now, i simply can;’t understand how my pediatric migraines were missed, and when I think about the years of pain, it pisses me off.

  • Clue numero uno:
    I have LOTS of relatives with migraines. Migraines have a major genetic component.
  • Clue numero dos:
    The pain was usually limited to one side of my head. Migraines typically stay on one side of the head, though each migraine can switch sides, almost like they take turns.
  • Clue numero tress:
    I lost sensation on 1/2 my body with the migraine. People do not turn numb from a regular headache.
  • Clue numero cuatro:
    I had photophobia and phonophobia, hyper sensitivity to light and sound. to the point where either of those were excruciatingly painful.
  • Clue numero cinco:
    I would throw up non stop for hours, unable to keep anything down.
  • Clue numero seis:
    I get an aura with my migraines. An aura is without a doubt the WORST thing about a migraine. One can be anywhere and suddenly lose nearly all vision. An aura also means that the migraine will appear within 30 minutes and will be so bad you’ll wish you were dead. Literally.

My list could go on and on, and on. My parents took me to lots of doctors, but there was never even a murmur of the “M” word. How could a pediatrician not know about pediatric migraines?

Sometime around the age of 15, I diagnosed myself (correctly as it turns out) with migraines. However, it still took me 2 years to find a doctor willing to see/treat me.

This brings me to the next migraine issue: how the public views migraines.

To be continued…

All or Nothing

I’m mostly an all or nothing kind of girl.

When I’m in, I’m in and when I’m out, well I’m pretty much out. I can be swayed, convinced even, but I definitely tend to stick to my opinions.

I can eat the same cereal for weeks  and then not have it for years. I will drink nothing but Diet Coke for months, but then decide I like Pepsi  better. Like I said, it’s all or nothing for me.

That brings me to my current issue: TV.

I grew up without TV. That’s not to say we didn’t have one (mini and hidden in my mom’s shoe bag.) But it wasn’t the center of my universe. Movies were for special occasions and only rated ‘G.’

With TV being a rare and forbidden thing, I read a lot. The library was my second home, and the books my second life. I would go to the library each week and take out dozens of books, consume and devour them over the week, and then go back for more the next week.

When I was about 13, I accidently took the book ‘PUSH’ out of the library. Wow was that an eye opener. I had no idea that people could do that kind of thing to family members and was pretty horrified. Let’s just say that’s one story I’ve kept to myself till now!

Like I said, I never had TV, and now I do. Well, I still don’t have a TV (that’s what moving back in with your parents does) but I do download everything onto my laptop. Now I’m like a kid in a candy store. A very time consuming, mind-numbing candy store. Even worse, I can’t just randomly watch an episode of a TV show. I need to watch EVERY episode, and every season. I need to know tha actors names and their background info. Considering the fact that every episode is generally 45 minutes, that is a LOT of wasted time.

Now I watch:
House
Grey’s Anatomy
Private Practice
Chuck
White Collar
Lie To Me
Better Off Ted
30 Rock
Modern Family
Castle
Glee

I guess I’m just trying to wrap my mind around my little addiction here.

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Welcome… :)

Well, I’ve finally caved and decided to publicly blog, in an attempt to add some interest to my Twitter account.

I’ve been an on and off blogger for years, and this is my first completely public attempt!

I work for a Jewish non-profit organization dealing with seriously ill children by day, and have been obsessively cramming for the LSAT by night. I’m a huge fan of social media, Twitter and Facebook are my most abused forms!

I’m not a particularly great writer, but I generally have an opinion about everything.

I’m an unapologetic liberal democrat and actually enjoy politics. Yes, I voted for Obama, and yes, I believe there should be health care for everyone. I think big banks are evil, but still bank with Chase.

I misuse commas, all the time. (Yes, that comma was a joke!)

I’m addicted to caffeine.

I use ‘I’ statements way too often.

I have severe, chronic, refractory migraines. Just so we’re clear, if you can take a Tylenol and your ‘migraine’ goes away, it’s NOT a migraine.

I have a fantastic memory for information that is generally not useful at all, but I have horrible short term memory. So I can remember a detailed, Hebrew song from first grade, but I have to check the UPS history to remember if I really did mail that package.

Off the top of my head I can name more than 6 different types of pediatric brain tumors. I realize that makes me weird.

Stay tuned…